it doesn't happen just once
it happens over and over again
and like this we have a crack
it's just like playing with fire and i can't build it up
but in the end i'm not strong enough
i'm pathetic
more than half the day is empty, i can't breathe i can't eat i can't sleep, i'm wrecked
maybe all of this is just too self-centered but if even just a little if it's the same if it doesn't break that easily
i want to be selfish
you don't know, stop thinking, what's so hard about this?
this is disjointed and my mind is a mess but it's been a while since i've had such a visceral reaction
i'm holding out alone when there's no way to go up, where does this tunnel end?
so just pretend that nothing happened
i guess it wasn't that deep after all
everything gets reversed even though they shouldn't, all questions and no answers
it's not sane
i'm suffocating
